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2007-03-15T03:52:00.000-07:00

This blog is now closed for the time being. I will be opening another and will personally email all of you with my link. I OBVIOUSLY have some self centered jerks stalking my blog and leaving rude nasty comments about my sister and her life...which they know nothing about, but only think they do. Its been real.

Tagged....

2007-03-14T02:00:00.000-07:00

OK I was tagged. 12 random things about me. I dont like tagging so if u do this...let me know.

1. My kids are my everything
2. I am lonley
3. I cry in the shower so nobody can see me
4. almost every single person I know has told me at some point or other in my life that I don't smile enough.
5. My whole house and everything in my house has the smell of fresh linen. I am very weird about this
6. I hate it when people hold back on who they really are sometimes, because they're afraid of what people might think. If you have the urge to do something…do it! like, I have the urge to smell everything…....so I dooo.
7. I would like more than anything to adopt a child from Africa
8. When I eat....I pick apart my food...such as a sandwich. I eat my dinner all seperatley and in order. All the veggies and all the carbs...then all the meaty things last. I dont know why...weird
9. If a guy is wearing some amazing smelling cologne, I fall helplessly in love with him…even if I hated him before the scent.
10. I hardly ever think about the present. Always the future
11. My Pet peeve..Bad Grammer. SPelling most particularly. I feel the need to spell check EVERYTHING. My friends and family sometimes get annoyed because I am constantly looking over their shoulder spell checking whatever they are doing.
12. My marriage has fallen apart.

I HATE people who drink

2007-02-28T03:42:00.000-08:00

Not just people who are alcoholics and no I am not talking about my mother. Im talking about People like my husband who is up at 6:30am drinking STILL. Being loud, being mean, meaning annoying. Our kids are about to wake up any given moment and he goes and makes himself another drink. Why does my life suck so much? AM I ever going to just be HAppy?

Survey

2007-02-28T00:30:00.000-08:00

Ok...Since I didnt get to the pictures. LOL. I will TRY to do them today...here is a survey I found that I liked.
Here are some questions for the people who are a little more mature... Okay, okay... OLD FOLKS like us......
1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
Mortgage

2. Where's the best place to eat a romantic dinner?
Olive Garden

3. Last time you puked from drinking?
WOW...uh. New Years Eve I think

4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on a bar?
I dont go to the bar anymore...prolly when I was like uh...17 or 18, and got into the bars all the time...YEP thats right! I KNOW PEOPLE! ;)

5. Name of your third grade teacher?
Mrs. Marsh / Mr. Richardson

6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
talking to someone

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
A teacher

8. How many colleges did you attend?
none

9. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now?
PJs...becuase it is 3am

10. GAS PRICES!?!?!
$2.39 - $2.49

11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you?
Im not sure where I would move but Id definatley take my children with me

12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
WHY DO I WORK 3RD SHIFT???THIS SUCKS

13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
Man Im exhausted...gave Trenton a kiss on his cheek and passed out

14. Favorite style of underwear?
Bikini

15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex?
boxers

16. What errand/chore do you despise?
Dishes- I hate them!!

17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer at an art gallery?
NO

18. Get up early or sleep in?
Get up early and have some quiet time without the kids up and screaming

19. What is your favorite cartoon character?
That little Baby on Family Guy

20. Favorite non sexual thing to do with a person of the opposite sex?
Lay in bed and cuddle and talk about stuff

21. a secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing?
there's a reason it's a secret

22. When did you first start feeling old?
Now. Well latley. I am thinking about how fast my life is going by and how much I want to do and just have no time to do it

23. Favorite 80's movie?
The Breakfast Club

24. Your favorite lunch meat?
Roast Beef

25. What do you get every time you go into Costco?
Never been there, but we get Shrimp when we go to Bj's

26. Beach or lake?
Um...Ill have to say Beach....becuase Ive never been. BUT I LOVE the LAKE and go every yr

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented..?
NO

28. Who do you stalk on MySpace?
EVERYONE

29. Favorite guilty pleasure?
EATING greasy fattening food, and washing it down with a cold Dr Pepper (eww...now that I read it, sounds gross)

30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?
I could care less

31. What's your drink?
Margarita on the rocks, hold the salt

32. Cowboys or Indians?
Cowboys :)

33. Cops or Robbers?
Cops

38. Who from high school would you like to run into?
Nobody...I still see everyone

39. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
96.5 CMF

42. Norm or Cliff?
HUH????

43. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons?
The Simpsons

44. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
Working together...it has really Fried our relationship

45. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?
Yah I LOVE him!!!!!

46. If you could get away with it, who would you kill?
Did you want my whole list? LMAO...pickin. Nobody I wouldnt kill anyone

47. What famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
Ryan Phillippe, Justin Timberlake, (HOT)

48. What famous person would you like to sleep with?
Both of the ones mentioned above

49. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
I havent but DOn did on Thanksgiving a couple of yrs ago, LOL

50. Last book you read for real?
OMG...IDK...It has been so long! Maby I should make time for one!

51. Do you have a teddy bear?
NO

52. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
on the toliet at the lake

53. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
Ive never been, But the Beach would be nice

54. Number of texts in a day?
Between 3-6

55. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
New Career

56. Do you go to church?
On occasion

57. Pencil or pen?
pen

58. bueller? bueller? bueller? has anyone seen Ferris??LOL...I ACTUALLY just got done watching it before I got online

60. What do you want to achieve in life?
To be a good mom have a Happy life

61. How old are you?
22

62. Where do you see yourself when you are 40?
HOPEFULLY.....Still married and Happily Married, with my beautiful children (and maby a couple more) LOL...and Just Happy

hi everyuone!

2007-02-21T01:39:00.000-08:00

Yep sill alive! LOL. Posting pics tomarro so be ready!!!! LOL

2007-02-10T12:24:00.000-08:00

A few things that mean something: Quotes, lyrics. Actually I just love words. I love that words have the ablility to express anything and everything.

A few Quotes...

2007-02-10T12:01:00.000-08:00

Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today -James Dean

He who doesn't fear death dies only once. ~Giovanni Falcone

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. -- Anonymous

Live everyday like your last, for tomarro is not promised to everyone

We miss you sooo much Jason~

8am....

2007-02-06T05:04:00.000-08:00

And my boys are still asleep!!!! Ahhhhhh.the sound of silence. Havent heard that in a long time!!! Of course Trenton didnt sleep very well last night. Tossing and turning and crying....although Carter slept like a log. They were both asleep by 9pm.
It is soooo cold here in NY. Actually as I see, most parts of the U.S. is freezing!!!! Our pipes froze sat night and we just got them unthawed last night about 6ish. My dad brought his kerosene heater over and then he insulated the cracks in our foundation. Thanks Dad, luv ya!
Homeschooling is going along rather smoothly. I found most of his favorites are singing and dancing, pretend play, fine motor and he LOVES to cook and bake. We have been doing all sorts of stuff. What he dont like is reading, writing and anything to do with launguage....go figure. If I sit down with him to read a book, he gets mad and throws it. Ive decided I am not going to push it, maby try it a few times a week. If I push it to much, he may not ever like it. SOOOOO.....we do other things to learn. ANYWAYS.I did get ahold of the school about Trentons speech. They are sending me a list of people in the county who are allowed to test him. I pick one, he gets tested. Then therepy starts..if he needs it. He is also gettin evaluated for other stuff such as autism and adhd...stuff like that. But I tend to not pay attention to what they say about that. I know how the state and county like to "label" kids and Ill be damned if they will label mine. But I do need help getting him to talk. I wont push it, if he has trouble with the therepist or for some reason gets upset with doing it, then I will wait until he is ready. But now it is effecting Carter, Carter does all of Trentons guestures and noises and when I ask him to say something....he does the same as Trenton.
Well I got lots of stuff to do around the house today. I have company comming this afternoon.
Oh and on the sign launguage...Trenton learned MORE and AIRPLANE yesterday. GO TRENTON!

JASON A MESLER

2007-02-04T10:25:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JASON!!!!!! I love you, we all LOVE you and miss you soooooooo MUCH! Today is a special DAY! ANd we will be all thinking of you. REST IN PEACE HUN and we will see you again someday. But for now I am sending Hugs and a kiss for you on ur birthday!
We know what you would be doing today.....riding that snowmobile of yours, wishing the snow would go away so you could drag out that skateboard of yours!!! THINKIN of you ALL DAY today BUD!!!!! Ride Hard, Skate Hard and Rock Hard!!!

I hate seeing you go!

You should smile MORE!!!

2007-01-17T04:51:00.000-08:00

Thats what EVERYONE ALWAYS says to me...tell me. DO I really look that unhappy?

Yesterday....

2007-01-12T07:46:00.000-08:00

This is what we have been up to......

Ok.....This first picture...is Trenton screaming, LOL. He hit his lip on Carters Head. They were bothe trying to get into the cave

Here is Carter, Pretending to be a bear...he is comming after me...lol...like the blankie in the mouth sort of thing!
Trenton....working on letter A's...he is doing a tracing Page....he really likes them and does really good too. The next picture is Trenton and Carter in the "CAVE" together. They are bears hibernating, LOL. Trenton even went and got some of his play food, they are eating, LOL.

Carter....just drawing with Crayons. He loves to do this...I just let him do what he wants...he makes suck colorful pages!!!!
And thats what we have been up to!!!! Thanks for watching!

help...

2007-01-10T03:19:00.000-08:00

If I switch blogs...get a new one. Will this one be deleted eventUALLY..OR WILL IT ALWAYS BE HERE?

Quotes really touch me, they make me think about everything in life

2007-01-10T02:25:00.000-08:00

Just becuase someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doesnt mean they love you with all they have
-unknown

hmmm....

2007-01-09T14:20:00.000-08:00

YAY My manager said I am doing really well at work and he is proud of me, LOL. I am such a KISS ASS! ;)

Unschooling.......

2007-01-06T11:35:00.000-08:00

So the unschooling has started. Slowly. We did talk about Winter the other day and he took in everything I told him. HOPEFULLY. We made snowflakes, we played with playdough, we made snowballs with playdough....we talked about Winter being cold. Which is funny becuase it is 58 degrees here today!!!! NO SNOW. Trenton prolly thinks I am nuts!!!!!! LOL! But thats ok! HEHE
Anyways....I am new to this...so if anyone has any info or tips ect...I would appreciate them.

Its been a LOOOOONNNNGGGGG TIME!

2007-01-03T04:50:00.000-08:00

I know, I know...It has been a VERY LONG TIME. I have been very busy here and there....and just too LAZY to get on and post, LOL. WARNING LONG POST!!!!!
I am thinking of changing my blogger.MABY. I really would like to keep this one going, Except I cant ever even post pictures and it sucks!
Hmm.....This month I begin "UNSCHOOLING"...Trenton. Today I talked to him about Winter. He listened to everything I had to say....he tried to ask questions....by using motions ect....I asked him what I knew to ask him, again he replied with hand motions. I think I am going to teach him sign....whynot right? It is still learning!!!
Christmas....was a blast! I stayed up all hours of the night xmas eve.wrapping presents and getting everything ready. I WILL BE MORE ORGANIZED NEXT YR!!!! I kept falling asleep on the floor again. I do that every year!!! Trenton left cookies for Santa......after he had a few bited, LOL.....and a big Swig of his milk. Then off to bed he went.....he fell right asleep! It was great!
We had xmas with Dons side of the family on xmas eve. It just seems a little easier, with us doing our own thing xmas morning and all. They got TONS of stuff and lots of nice clothes. I barely took any pictures. I dont think his mom did either, hmmm.....Im a BAD MOM.
ANYWAYS....The kids werent that excited xmas morning...perhaps becuase they just woke up. Trenton was VERY slow at opening gifts while Carter ripped right through them. They got tons of toys!!! Now I am wishing I got them more educational stuff! Oh well. They are only young once.
Trentons 2nd gift he opened was a tool kit, which came with a pretend Jack knife. After that he didnt even want to open any presents and if he did, he tried to open them with his jack knife....going around the edges. Must have seen his Poppy do it or something?
I made a HUGE breakfast!!! And everything came out GREAT! I made Panacakes with red and green m&m's in them.YUMMY! With blueberry syrup on top! I also made toast, cinnamon bread, eggs, ham, bacon and corn beef hash! After the boys were all done eating, we all piled into the living room.Don put the movie "The Christmas Story" on, I ATE my breakfast, and the boys played on the floor with their toys! We had our own special little morning.. After that it was RUSH< RUSH< RUSH!
We rushed our showers, getting dressed...ect and we didnt even get out the door until 3pm.
Went to my parents house.hung out. Opened presents, kids got a few disney moveis and a few toys, clothes ect. Opened presents with my Uncle and my grandparents. Got some Awesome Martha Stewart Pie Tins and cookie sheets! Thanks Uncle Jim! Got a cute snowman decoration from my grandparents. Made them a HUGE fruit basket!
We ate some pumpkin roll and walked down the street to DOns Grammas. We played some board games, drank some wine. Don took the kids home. They were ready for bed, so was he. I stayed a while, Played more games and had more wine. It was really rainy and muddy out. No snow of course! I was walking out the our vehicle....and slipped down a small hill. MUD ALL OVER ME! Needless to say...I was wearing my brand new clothes I had just gotten xmas eve. I did finally get the mud out, after like 5 tries. Oh well.
Got home about 10pm...went staright to bed. It was a good xmas!
New Years Eve....YUCK! NOT GOOD. We were invited to a party my friends were throwing. Don is NOT the party type, not the public type either, as a matter of fact, he hates even being around people. Weird I know. SO we decided I would go and he would stay. I told him I would be back about midnightish to celebrate the new year with him and the kids. So...I spent all afternoon....making food for him and the kids. I made pizza, crab dip, breadsticks, mini weenys wrapped in crassiants and a bunch of other dips.
I got to the party about 8pm...we had a few drinks and just sosialized. Left and went home about 11:45pm...got home. Trenton was sleeping on the playroom floor, Don was playing a videogame and Carter was in the playroom playing with his toys. SO....I picked Trenton up and carried him to his bed. Got out some sparking cidar for Carter. Poured 2 glasses of Champagne for me and DOn. We watched the ball drop, drank our stuff, had a new Years Kiss. I put Carter to bed and out the door I went. Back to the party. Partied Hard, Like I used to back in highschool. NOT GOOD! I wont be drinking for a LONGTIME! I had sooooo much fun though, hanging out with all of my friends...just like I used too. Having fun just like we used to!!!! It was great! I will post some pics either tomarro or the next day! Blogger is being sucky again tonite.
Trenton is attending Sunday school now. He loves it! He has been having LOTS of fun! He makes crafts, sings songs, reads book, plays games. He is having sooooo mcuh fun!
Well I guess that is enough for now...Will try to update more!

My day off!

2006-12-19T05:55:00.000-08:00

Been EXTREMLY BUSY and maby I will get to post later today!

prayers needed

2006-12-13T00:12:00.000-08:00

Please pray for my dear friend Sarah and her family. They lost their baby this week.....their beautiful 2 yr old daughter. Pray for her and her family to make it through all of this. PLEASE...I BEG YOU!

BLOGGER MAKES ME MAD

2006-12-07T11:50:00.000-08:00

APPARENTLY...I wasnt allowed to post this morning or put pictures up!!!! GRRRR! ANYWAYS...Here is a poem that a friend of mine wrote. I LOVE IT....Thanks Thena for letting me put this on my blog!

Someone Cares

Someone out there is hurting
And they need a loving touch
They need to know that someone cares
And loves them very much

.Someone out there feels all alone
Not just a bit sad and blue
But someone feels so very depressed
That they don't know what to do.

Someone out there needs a kind word
Or a loving touch upon their brow
And many of us would love to help
But we feel we don't know how.

Someone out there is praying
For a word from God above
That will confirm that He is real
And assure them of His love.

Someone out there needs a friend
And needs a bit of sweet relief
From all the trials they're going through
And needs the comfort of belief.

Someone could be the hand God uses
Or the human that He will send
To help heal the hurting, aching heart
And be the Heaven chosen friend.

Don't say "I'm just one person
There's nothing I can do."
But be a willing vessel
If God chooses to send you.

Love this Poem!!!!!

It is 6:32am here in NY...

2006-12-07T03:31:00.000-08:00

Things I am in Love with............

2006-12-06T04:11:00.000-08:00

Lately

1. Hinder- Lips of an Angel.....LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!!!!!!!
2. Myspace...............I am totally addicted to talking with my frinds online! Heres mine:
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=41107222
3. Israel Kamakawiwo'ole........"Somewhere Over the Rainbow"- I LOVE THIS SONG SOOOOO MUCH. Makes me cry. Check it out if you haven't heard it yet. This is a Hawiian singer.....who sings the most beautiful music. He passed away in 1997
4. House......I love this show. Catch it on tuesday nights.....on FOx......at 9pm. This is a TV series running in its third season now. It is a story about a group of doctors in a hospital. People of all nature would end up at the hospital and be diagnosed by Dr. House and his team.
5. CHRISTMAS MUSIC...................I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!!!
6. Camera...............I been snappin pictures like crazy!!!!!
7. Crossword Puzzles..........I been doing them on my breaks at work lately. Me and some of the guys I work with. Is funny!
8. Coffee............me drink coffeee................NO WAY!
9. My Hair Straightner............I use it everyday!
10. List Makin........I use it for EVERYTHING!

Im not sure how the pics will turn out. You know how blogger is!

A-Z of Me

2006-11-29T04:56:00.000-08:00

Found this on a blog today. Cant remember where but it looked fun!!!!

A-available/single? Very married. Rolling in on our 4th year
B-Best Friend-My Sister-Truley......nobody knows me better
C-Cake or Pie? Pie- Blackberry Preferrably
D-Drink of Choice-Dr Pepper.but seeing how thats not on my menu anymore......Crystal Light Lemonade
E-Essential Item you use everyday-Hair Straightner
F-Favorite Color-Orange
G-Gummi Bears or worms? Worms. But thats if thats my only choice.......I prefer Swedish Fish and SOur Patch Kids
H-Hometown? Andover NY
I-Indulgance? a mocha....once in a while (monthly?)
J-January or Feburary? I dislike them both......too cold!
K-Kids and their names......2 boys....Trenton and Carter
L-Life is incomplete without? CHOCOLATE! LOL.....no, My family
M-Marriage Date-July 17th 2003
N-number of siblings-one 1/2 sister(whom Ive never met), 1 older brother(whom Ive never met), 2 younger brothers and 1 younger sister
O-oranges or apples?-hmmmm...tough one.right now....oranges
P-Phobias/Fears-Heights, Spiders and Death
Q-Fav Quote- Gosh I have sooo many!
R-Reason to smile- My boys
S-Season-Fall
T-Tag, 3 people. - If you want to play....Tag Your it! Let me know so I can read your answers!
U-Unknown Fact about me-I sleep with a blanket.......keeps me warm on cold nights....dries my tears on bad nights
V-Vacation of my dreams/Veggie I dont like-A cabin on the beach...with a comfy chair and a great view....I like all veggies
W-Worst Habit-Biting or picking my nails when I am nervous...I also use my index finger to pick the side of my thumb nail when I am nervous. Weird I know!
X-Xrays Ive had- My Jaw and My head
Y-your Fav Food-Anything Mexican or Italian
Z-zodiac sign-Cancer

My sister

2006-11-14T05:48:00.000-08:00

ISNT SHE BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-10T14:19:00.000-08:00

Well...the time has come again at walmart..to switch managers. Jim OUT...KIM IN. I like Kim. SHe seems really nice......she dont really know what she is doing but Im sure she will get the hang of it...after all she has only been Assistant Manager for 6 months.
Jim- At first U dont like him and then he grows on you. LOL He was pretty cool. Was kind of sad to see him go. NOT LIKE WITH LINDSAY THOUGH....see Lindsay here
http://jolenegreen.blogspot.com/2006/01/anyways-i-am-dying-for-my-dr-pepper.html
GOT TO GET GOING......HAVE TO GET DINNER ON THE TABLE!

IM BACK ONLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-09T00:41:00.000-08:00

AND ALL MOVED IN! UGH! Next time I am having a yard sale!!! We moved all overnight monday night...Oct 30th. I WAS SOOOOO tired and soooo cold. THAT I DEMANDED we put our matress on the floor in our new home and go to sleep!!! I hadnt slept at all since I been out of work...I WAS EXHAUSTED!!! SO about 4am we did just that. We put up our bed and went to sleep. Woke up about 8:30am...went and picked up the kids and started moving again. My brother, father and friend all came and helped. We were moved out about 6pm tuesday night. We had just enough time to slip the kids costumes on and off to trick or treat. We only went a few blocks...Trenton was sooo tired he made me carry him most of the way. He got more than enough candy, seeing how I dont let him have it much anyways. My father...when we got to his house...dumped his whole bowl of candybars right into Trentons bag...THANKS DAD! ;)
WE LOVE OUR NEW HOUSE!!!! It is soooo big on the inside. The boys love it as well....more for them to get into. LOL. I will try to post some pics if this stupid blogger lets me! I still have LOTS of unpacking to do! IM not really sure how we got soooo much stuff or where we even put it all for that matter! YIKES!
UPDATE ON MY SISTER.for any of you that were wondering. She is doing really good. SHe is still depressed and still crys alot. But not as bad as she did. I did snoop in her room the other day (BAD SISTER!!!!!!)...for her journal.found it...read it.and it said she thinks this os her fault...when we talk about Jason...I ALWAYS remind her it is NOT her fault. SHe is seeing another guy.they are "dating". He is very nice. I have met him.quick to say I LOVE YOU...YIKES.SHe says he is very nice to her...funny and she likes hanging around with him....he goes to school with her. SO hopefully she is off to a good start and this might help her get thru Jasons Incident.ON the bad side...she has been suspended 3 times from school already. She has been in 3 fights. One a girl said to her....no wonder why ur BF killed himself...Jamie flipped out and beat the CRAP out of her...her parents ALMOST pressed charges. One other boy picked on her about Jason and she punched him in the nose. ANd the other was another fight. I feel bad becuase there is nothing she can say when people laugh at her about it...other than have sooo much anger as to HIT them. I dont know what to tell her....I know it must be sooo hard! I LOVE HER and hope she feels better SOON.....here is her blog...
http://www.myspace.com/41094568

YAY we are moving!!!!

2006-10-09T12:23:00.000-07:00

I am sooo happy! We get to start moving tomarro! I should be back online within the next month....depends on how things go. I am sooooo EXCITED!!!!!! Ill talk to everyone when I get back online!

I love....

2006-10-07T11:00:00.000-07:00

THE MOODY BLUES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANyone else?

Update on house!

2006-10-03T17:53:00.000-07:00

YAY! We are all READY AND WAITING! Our bank has us cleared to close..our lawyer is all ready to close. We are just waiting on our DANG SELLERS! Go figure. SO HOPEFULLY in the next week we can move! Keep your fingers crossed for me!

2006-09-27T03:03:00.000-07:00

Jason- I was thinking about you today! Love you and miss you! I'll see you when I get there!

2006-09-27T02:47:00.000-07:00

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Hurry I'm fallin'
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for youHurry
I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Hurry I'm fallin'

2006-09-27T02:08:00.000-07:00

"To take the first step in faith, you don't have to see the whole staircase: just take the first step."
~ Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr

2006-09-24T10:43:00.000-07:00

It HURTS me sooo much becuase she is my mother and I LOVE HER! Why she dont love me, I dont know.

2006-09-20T20:53:00.000-07:00

~Wierd how you cant explain LOVE

I LOVE QUOTES!

2006-09-18T15:49:00.000-07:00

"To Love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides"
-UNKOWN

To be good is noble, but to teach others how to be good is nobler--and far less trouble. Mark Twain, 1906

The family is a haven in a heartless world. ~Attributed to Christopher Lasch

You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. ~Desmond Tutu

2007 goals

2006-09-15T12:50:00.000-07:00

Has anyone thought about your goals for next year? I have. I have even made a list of some of the so far. I am usually pretty good about making my goals. I usually have this humungus list about 50 goals long, LOL, and I usually make 1/2 of them anyways...so thats good!

ANYWAYS....I found this little list on another blog and decided to steal it, LOL

I want: my house to come thru
I have: A beautiful Family
I wish: I was not so heavy anymore
I hate: sweet pickles
I miss: my mother and my sister; Jason
I hear: onions browning and TV on low
I wonder: What my life would be like if I never met DOn
I regret: I usually have no regrets but since Jason died...I regret I didnt help him
I am not: Perfect
I dance: all the time
I sing: very loudly to myself
I cry: when I look thru old pictures of my boys
I am not always: organized
I make with my hands: scrapbooks and cards
I write: journals, blog entrys and lists
I confuse: others around me
I need: my liscence
I should: be cleaning right now
I start: taking the kids to Sunday school this week
I finish: ???

MY Luck!

2006-09-14T03:10:00.000-07:00

MY luck latley has just been horrible!
My camera is broken.....I cant afford a new one right now! Trentons birthday comming up in Oct. UGH! Apperently the metal piece that makes the connection in the batteries fell out. Sometime when......Im not sure. Completely broken. No everyday pictures...I do have a nice 35mm....but since I had my didgital...well you know...It just isnt the same.

I also wanted to let everyone know that I most likley will not be online October thru November. I am getting everything shut off in Oct...Im not sure if we will have the $$ to hook it all back up in Nov. But we will see. SO....if I dont get ahold of you for a couple of months...thats why. HOPEFULLY.......we will get our house and beable to move. PRAY FOR ME>.>>>>

WHY US?

2006-09-13T03:44:00.000-07:00

Just when I thought something good may happen for us....just when I thought all of our hard work would pay off....just when I thought we could have something beautiful to show for working so hard....WE GET SCREWED!

So...almost everyone knows we are buying a home. A nice home.....a big beautiful home...where we can raise our children and be a family. Well it just so happens that the house next door is selling as well. They were at closing and had to have the survey done. Well it seems to be that the surveyer put the flags in our BACKYARD. SO of course this makes a big problem for everyone. He even included our septic system in it. So instead of having the whole fenced in backyard.....it leaves us just a small strip that is even with our driveway. I have been sooo upset about it for like 2 days now. I cant even sleep. My realtor, lawyer etc...tell me...dont worry about it. Wait until the very end....DONT WORRY ABOUT IT? HUH
I have already put $1500 into this house!!!! If we decide not to buy it...I WONT GET MY MONEY BACK! I cannot believe it....DONT WORRY ABOUT IT! How can someone NOT WORRY about $1500. PLEASE TELL ME!
I am sooo sad and sooo scared that when my survey comes back....it will be wrong....I am HOPING that it will be surveyed like we were shown when we bought it. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. I really wanted this house. :(

Another Quote

2006-09-13T02:26:00.000-07:00

A child will make
love stronger,
days shorter,
nights longer,
the home happier,
the past forgotten,
and the future
worth living for.
-anonymous

MY FAVORITE QUOTE OF ALL TIME

2006-09-12T15:53:00.000-07:00

-Dance like nobody is watching, Love like you've never been hurt.
Sing like nobody is listening, live like it's heaven on earth.
Mark Twain

Explanations........

2006-09-11T15:43:00.000-07:00

The few readers I do have must have noticed by now my posts have slowed down. We have a relationship here and you do deserve an explanation because things are changing, I am changing.

I started this blog during a time that was emotionally tough for me, my husband and I were thinking about adding to our family. And it was a long time dream of mine, and I needed a place to vent some emotions, and I decided to start a blog. I have been processing and changing while blogging, and I enjoy having a purpose to write. Blogging is very much like a social diary, and being the social person I am, it has been great for me.

I have stated that I have changed, and therefore, my blogging needs have changed. I cannot spend the time and energy blogging that I have been spending. I knew this, but something happened that made me decide to really change it.

My 2 yr old, wanted me to play with him. I told him "NO....Im on the computer". He pleaded and pleaded....said PLEEEEAAASSSEEE in his soft little tone, over and over again. ANd like the bad mommy I was I told him I was playing on the computer. Then he ran away crying.....and I sat looking at my computer trying to decide what was sooo important about playing on the internet? It will always be here.....my son....he wont "always" be begging me to play dinosaurs or ball with him. SO I shut my computer off and went and played with him. We played all afternoon and all evening....we had such a GREAT TIME! WHAT WAS I THINKING.....wasteing all theese precious moments to be on my computer?

Now, I do need to say that I don't spend all my time on the computer, I cook, I clean, I care for my children. I am on the computer less and less all the time. But that is not the important part.

The important part is my sons perception. That is how he sees it. That is how he will remember it.

It's not how I want to be perceived or remembered.

I will still post, but my posts will only be when I have something I want/need to write. I will still read your blogs, but I may not be able to do it everyday. Let's do it some more, but please understand that I can't give as much as I have been.

Thank you for reading. Thank you for your time and energy. Thank you for sharing

see you soon,
JG

Its 4:30 am...

2006-08-17T01:50:00.000-07:00

And I am sooooo tired that I could just curl up into bed and cuddle with my pillow and go to sleep.but I am awake enough to stay up just to have my own peace and quiet..............
I was going to share some pics but blogger again...is not working properly!

HELLO

2006-08-13T09:31:00.000-07:00

OK....I would update with pictures BUT Blogger is not allowing me to post pics for some unusual reason! ANyways.......
We been very busy latley.working longer hours and trying to get some sleep in between spending time with the kids and work. We are currantly trying to buy a home....we put an offer in and the seller accepted...YAY! SO now it is just a long process before we can actually call it ours. This home is great! It has a perfect 3 bedrooms, 2 full batherooms, in which one is fully renovated. A VERYU LARGE kitchen which has also been fully renovated. A large foyer and a breezeway in the back......a large living room and a large dinning room. It is an old victorian style house.it still has the original chesnut woodwork throughout it. Very nice. ALl the floors are the original wood floors.except in the kitchen and the batheroom. Walk up into atic.and a 1/2 cellar. The only dissapointment is the yard is much smaller than we hoped for....it is fenced in but only big enough for a smaller swimming pool and a swingset and then very little playroom, but there is a very large nice deck on the back. The yard is much smaller than what we wanted BUT when buying a home, I guess you cant get everything you want. I cant wait!!!! I am soooo EXCITED! Our closing is at the end of October. AND WE CANT WAIT!!!!!!
Hopefully tomarro we are going to see the house again....so I will take my camera and post some pictures.....until then Im out!

More pictures

2006-08-02T02:13:00.000-07:00

Trenton and Papa on the boat...dons step dad. Carter in his life Jacket...he was really scared of the boat...he looked sooo funny....Don and Carter on the boat.

A picture I took thru our windsheild as we were driving down to the docks...Carter and Trenton in the van....I love this pic of Trenton and Carter was just being silly!!!!

Carter being silly. He has a fishy in his mouth...ANother picture of Don and Carter......Everybody sitting on top of me...in our backyard

A family picture of all of us....while we were playing out sidein our backyard.....And Last picture is Trenton playing with a sparkler.

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2006-07-30T16:19:00.000-07:00

"I am falling down
Try and stop me
It feels soo good to hit the ground
You can watch me"

Buying a house!!!! MABY

2006-07-28T14:54:00.001-07:00

YAY we might be buying a house!!!! WISH ME LOTS OF LUCK!!!!

Yikes!

2006-07-26T21:17:00.000-07:00

Ok...so I know I have been MIA....BUT we just found out that the apartments we are living in have been foreclosed on....It REALLY SUX! We have been looking for somewhere to go, packing etc...we have been to the bank and we are waiting to see if we are preapproved for a home loan, LOooking at houses, etc. We have 120 days to be out, so that sucks as well. Anyways...Here is Day 3 pictures...The first one is Trenton after we had our showers. He is all wrapped up in his fishy towel

We went for a hike that day....Trenton got REALLY tired!!! It was a REALLY long trail and he walked most of it by himself...But after a bit he got exhausted. Don put him up on his shoulders and he fell asleep...it was sooo funny. The not so funny part...we were about 1/2 way thru the trail and we heard something snap....like a branch in the woods...we looked and no not a deer, not a bear but a coyote...thats pretty much why Don was carrying Trenton...It must have been one lonley one...becuase we didnt get scouted out and ate by them...but I was freaking the whole time anyways

Then we spent the rest of the day at the Lake...The boys had fun. It was REALLY HOT out! The one pic Trenton is playing with his cousin Braden and in the other Carter is sitting with his AUnt Glenna. The boys LOVE her...WHat else...Hmmmm.....OH....I am hoping to get another JOB. AT the College with My MIL.
FREE INSURANCE and it is GREAT Insurance....I get LOTS of time off...like breaks when the college kids are off and if I want I could have the whole summer off...I would collect unemployment while I am off...but HEY NO work is Good! LOL Plus it is closer to drive than walmart is....and I am either going to days or Getting this job....Havent decided yet...There is a Union here too......The ONLY bad thing is that it woulld be a while until I started making as much as I make at walmart....so that kinda sucks...Ya know......Opinions Please....
We are going camping again....our days off.....only for a few days...we are going to Woodstream in Warsaw....It will be fun! We went a few years ago when Trenton was a baby...they got a cute little pond and a HUGE Creek to go tubing down and the currant is awesome.....Lots of walking areas...It is really nice there....clean and quiet...
I think in October we are going to take the kids to Yogi Bear's Jellystone Park in North Java. Never been their before but our neighbors took their kids and said it was GREAT! They said that there is stuff for the kids to do all day long! Yogi and Booboo are there too.....ANyone ever been there?
Well got to get to bed...I will post more pics tomarro

Day 2 at Kueka Lake

2006-07-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

We took the boys to the Lake for a bit...it was kinda chilly. Trenton LOVED it. He had sooo much fun!!!! Carter didnt like it at first but then got used to it. Carter dont really like water anyways. He screams the whole time I bathe him...so it is in and out for him. ANYWAYS...we had a fire....that night and had Steaks and salad for dinner. The boys had FUN!

MIL and me and the boys in the Lake swimming
Chunky Monkey playing with his little Push around toy.....it was a HOT, EARLY morning!

Trenton trying out the pool we put up for him...LOL...the water came fro a direct spring and was FREEZING! But it was sooo hot, he got used to it really quick!

IM BACK!!!

2006-07-16T21:40:00.000-07:00

We are back!!!! Back from the Lake! We had LOTS of fun, but it was WAAAAYYYYY to HOTT! I got like 3rd degree sunburn on my back and shoulders...I SWEAR! It is BAD!!!!!! It is all bubbled up, my whole back and shoulders....it looks like I have one giant blister but little ones on top of it! It is really GROSS! It is burned like 3 layers down,, it is REALLY GROSS! BUT....the kids had fun and thats ALL THAT MATTERS!
The pictures are from our first night there. We spent most of the day setting up...Theese sleeping pics are the boys after a long DAY...THEY WERE EXHAUSTED!!!

Our little fire we had the first night. Dons' Aunt and gramma were there at another site. SO we used their area to make a fire in. Trenton and his Truck, Daddy JUST HAD TO BRING!!!

Carter and Grandma by the fire.....Don and his aunt and his Gramma...will post more tomarro!

On VACATION

2006-07-08T05:41:00.000-07:00

Well everyone. DOnt miss me too much but I will be on vacation the next week. We are leaving tomarro morning after work...YAY! I cant wait! We are going to Kueka Lake. SOOOOOO MUCH FUN! I have ALOT to do today!
I still have to pack, LOL....I have to clean my house up and down...I have to put together a pasta salad and an photo album for my brothers Graduation Party. I have to go to my Brothers grad Party....come home and GO TO BED!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH! Wish me Luck! I will post when I come back.....hopefully late sunday night or early monday morning. ANd YES I will be stopping to get some BULLYHILL Wine! YUM!

A childhood story

2006-07-07T13:02:00.000-07:00

When I was 10, I fell off the back of a dirtbike and smashed my head open on a HUGE ROCK. I had a concusion. I got 8 staples across the back of my head and 3 staples upwards.

SURVEY

2006-07-05T16:03:00.000-07:00

Full Name:: Jolene Nicole
Birthday:: July 12th
Birthplace:: Wellsville NY
Eye Color:: BLue
Hair Color:: Dirty Blonde
Height:: 5'8
Weight:: too much
Right handed or Left handed?: right handed
Your Heritage:: German
My Worst Habit:: biting my nails
Zodiac Sign:: cancer
Shoe Size:: 10
Pants Size:: ?
Innie or Outie?: Innie
Parents Still Together?: yes
The Shoes You Wore Today:: sandals
Your Weakness:: Pepperoni
Your Fears:: spiders and heights
Your Perfect Pizza:: extra cheese and mushrooms
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year::
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: LMAO, LOL
Thoughts First Waking Up:: it's time to get up already
Your Best Physical Feature:: I dont have one
Your Bedtime:: 8:00 am
MY FAVORITES
Favorite color?: orange
Food?: pizza
Sport?: Soccer to play, I HATE watching sports
Ice Cream?: thats hard
Candy?: starburst skittles anything fruity no chocklate
Store?: I LOVE TO SHOP, besides scrappingbooking stores, I LOVE TARGET
Salad Dressing?: red wine vinagerett
Actor?: Ryan Phillipie-yeah baby
Song?: WOW-hard choice....I am a BIG MUSIC FAn...Uhh...ANything but at the moment
Shakira-my hips dont lie
Letter?: T
Number?: 2
Gum?: Eclipse-peppermint
Holiday?: Christmas
Season?: Fall
Toothpaste Flavor?: Crest Mint
Radio Station?: CMF
Perfume?: Clinique Happy
Scent besides perfume?: Fresh mowed Grass, Fresh Laundry, Baby
Body part on the opposite sex?: DO u REALLY wanna know? LOL

FRIENDS AND LIFE
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: Daycare provider or a preschool Teacher
How Do You Want To Die?: Peaceful
Who's The Loudest?: ??? I dont really have any loud friends
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?: Jenn G
Who Have You Known The Longest?: Sara
Who's The Shyist?: Jenn G
When Have You Cried The Most?: Funeral
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?: Being a mother
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?: not quite sure...we were thinking Ithaca, MABY
How Long Do You Think You'll Live?: Hopefully old enough to see my children grow up

FINISH EACH SENTENCE
Let's walk on the: Beach
Let's look at the: Flowers
What a nice: Day
Where did all the: Cowboys go, LOL
Why can't we: sing
Silly, little: thing
Isn't it weird that: my sister is a dork, LOL
I wish: I was rich!
Everyone has a: heart
I am: UGLY

HAVE YOU EVER
Been In Love?: Yes

Been To Juvie?: No
Mooned Someone?: No
Been Rejected?: Yep
Ran away from home? Sort of
Pictured your crush naked? NO
Skipped School: HECK YAH...ALL THE TIME
Thought about suicide? No
Slept Outside?: Yes
Laughed So Hard You Cried?: Yes
Cried In School?: Yes
Thrown Up In School?: No
Wanted To Be a Model?: NO
Cheated On Someone?: No
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?: Yes.....
Seen a dead body: yes
Been Bitched out: yes
Drank Alcohol?: Yes
Smoked?: Yes
Been on Drugs: A LONG TIME AGO
Eaten Sushi?: NO. YUCK!!!
Been on Stage: No
Gone Skinny Dipping?: Yes
Shoplifted?: No
Been Drunk?: Yes
Been called a tease? By my hubby....YES ;)
Been Beaten Up?: NO
DO YOU
Swear?: Try not to
Sing Well?: SOrt of I guess
Want to go to college? Someday
Want To Get Married?: I am
Believe In Yourself?: Certain things
Get Motion Sickness?: No
Think You Are Attractive?: NO
Get Along With Your Parents?: My Dad
Like Thunderstorms?: Yes
Play An Instrument?: Guitar
Own An IPOD?: No but I will
Pray: Yes
Go To Church?: SOmetimes
Sleep With Stuffed Animals?: Trentons "ARF" (doggie) I am Forced to sleep with, LOL
Keep A Journal/Diary?: Yes
Dance In The Rain?: No
Sing In The Shower?: Yes
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke?: DR PEPPER
McDonald's or Burger King?: Mcdonalds
SIngle or group dates: Single and Group. any date will do, LOL
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Vanilla
Strawberries or Blueberries?: Strawberries
Meat or Veggies?: Meat
TV or Movie?: TV
Guitar or Drums?: Guitar
Adidas or Nike?: Adidas
Chinese or Mexican?: Mexican...YUMMO
Cheerios or Corn Flakes?: NEITHER...Frosted Mini WHeats
Cake or Pie?: Pie, I dont do cake
MTV or VH1?: Neither
Blind or Deaf?: Blind
Boxers or Briefs?: Boxers
CAN YOU
Do The Splits?: No
Write With Both Hands?: No
Whistle?: Yes
Blow a bubble: Yes
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?: Yes
Cross Your Eyes?: Yes
Walk With Your Toes Curled?: Yes
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?: Yes
Dance?: Yes
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry?: No
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You Touched:: Trenton
You Talked To On The Phone:: My Father
You Instant Messaged:: ???
You Hugged:: Trenton
You Yelled At:: Don
You Played A Sport With:: Trenton
WHAT'S THE LAST
Time You Laughed?: Just a sec ago
Time You Cried?: An hour ago
Movie You Watched?: Its been a while
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?: WInter Fresh
Joke You Told?: I dont tell jokes
Song You've Sung?:
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENTBlack eyed Peas- Pump it
Where Are You?: In my living room
What Can You See Out Your Window?: a tree and a swing set
What Are You Wearing?: Tank top, capris
What's On Your Mousepad?: Dell

BELIEFS

Do you believe in miracles?: Yes
Magic?: No
Love at first sight?: I agree...Lust
God?: Yes
Satan?: No
Ghosts?: Spirits, yes
Santa?: Yes
Evolution?: Yes

IN A Man...
Fav Eye Color:: Blue
Fav Hair Color:: Blonde
Short or Long Hair:: SHort
Best Clothing Style:: Off, LOL
RANDOM
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?: France
Number Of CD's I Own:: 25 maby, LOL
Your Good Luck Charm:: No...just a wallet size pic of my boys
How many pillows do you sleep with?: 2
Do you drink milk?: only with cookies
Most Outdated Phrase:: ???
Do you think God has a gender?: NO
Where do you think we go when we die?: I think we cross over
How many rings until you answer the phone?: first or second, LOL
Are you a health freak?: NO
Are you a virgin?: NO
If you could travel into space, where would you go?: the moon
What is the worst weather?: Snowing
Did you play with Barbies as a child?: yes
How many grades have you failed?: none

2006-07-03T15:16:00.000-07:00

"You have a song that's yours, and it's a worthwhile song. It might be only a little song, but there are people out there who will like it." - Philip Toshido Sudo

Our New Van

2006-07-01T11:40:00.000-07:00

We ABSOLUTLEY LOVE IT!!!!!

2005 Dodge Grand Caravan

It is sooo nice and in very good shape!!!

Just thought I would share....of course this is Dons vehicle and the Malibu is now "MY CAR"

A Little About Me

2006-06-30T08:29:00.000-07:00

I got this from Brianas Blog http://designsbybriana.blogspot.com/

FIRST NAME? Jolene
WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No...my dad picked it out
WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? Last night with my sister
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Its alright
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Roast Beef
DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Yep, 2 boys...Trenton-2 and Carter-1
IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Of course! I think I am a good friend, If I wasnt I guess I wouldnt have many friends..but I got lots sooo.
DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? Yes..I do, actually I have a bunch, becuase of all the scrapping I do
DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? SOmetimes
DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes
WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Um...Maby
DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? When they are brand new but after about a month, NO
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? If this means emotionally then NO I am VERY WEAK
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? This is hard, I LOVE Ice Cream...I pretty much like everything except chocolate based Ice Creams
SHOE SIZE? 9 1/2
RED OR PINK? Pink
WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? My weight and my Gap between my teeth ( UGH!)
WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Well, since I have not yet had many people pass away...My cousin Mike who I was VERY close to...committed suicide about 5 years ago......and OF COURSE JASON.....REST IN PEACE BOTH OF YOU
WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Wellsville NY...July 12th
WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Khakis and barefoot slippers
WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? A Cheeseburger
WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Carter crying and "Lazytown" Theme SOng
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Yellow
FAVORITE SMELL? Fresh Cut Grass
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED WITH ON THE PHONE? My Mother In Law
THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU MEET? Their Teeth
DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? SCrapbooking
FAVORITE DRINK? Yep- you guessed it, Dr Pepper
FAVORITE SPORT? I LOVE to play soccer
EYE COLOR? Blue
DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No
FAVORITE FOOD? Pizza
SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING? Both
LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Um..Date Movie
.WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Turquoise
SUMMER OR WINTER? Summer
HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs
FAVORITE DESSERT? ANything Lemon
WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? None
WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Dell, LOL
FAVORITE SOUNDS? My Kids laughing and Birds chirping
ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Toughie- I would have to go with The STones
THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME? UM..LOL....2 hours maby 3
IF YOU COULD PICK ANY TWO PEOPLE TO HAVE DINNER WITH, WHO WOULD THEY BE? Umm.........I would have to say Jason Mesler and my cousin Mike just so I could say...see you later

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2006-06-29T01:59:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! My lil sister started a blog last night...hehe...Here is the link, comment and make her feel good would ya PLEEEAAASSSEEEEE.....

http://jamielynnsmith.blogspot.com/

More pictures

2006-06-28T07:30:00.000-07:00

Thought I would share some more photos of Franks graduation and Fathers Day

Checkin In.....

2006-06-27T12:04:00.000-07:00

Well, Been pretty busy lately....First of all...we got a new van...YAY! I am sooo excited! I LOOOOOVVVEEEE IT! I couldnt take any pictures yet...its been really rain y here....2005 Dodge Grand Caravan...in such a pretty color blue. Love it...as sooo does Don and the kids.
My little Brother...Frank.... just graduated. Yay for him! It was an awesome graduation...I didnt get any pictures at the graduation itself...nobody did really....the lighting was bad so everyone was moaning and groaning about their pictures not turning out. GRRR...I was mad as well. But it was nice...got lots of pictures with him and his friends...ecspecially the girls...as you can see...he is DEFINATLEY a ladies man! Just so everyone knows his party is at my grandmothers house on July 8th...1pm-whenever and everyone is welcome!

Ive had some problems with my mother latley due to her drinking...she got hurt over the weekend pretty bad. She hasnt drank since but I know it wont be long now...It has been 4 days. SO I know she will go thru withdrawl pretty soon. Life is hard right now...there are sooo many problems hitting us all at once...and it is definatley hard.

On another note....a week in a half until vacation....YAY! I cant wait...we are going to the lake again this yr...I LOVE it there! I think next yr we are either going to go to The Andirondacks....LAKE EATON or Dons mom wants to go to Virgina Beach and seeing how I have NEVER seen the Ocean...I would LOVE to go there! But who knows

A Few things to Share

2006-06-20T16:47:00.000-07:00

First of all....we buzzed Trentons hair today...YIKES! We made a mistake...It looks absolutley horrible! He was sooo mad at us!!!! There are some before and after below. Its been in the low 90's here, so I figured why not?
I just wanted to share a few things with everyone.
Second is this website .....I thought it was really neat....People send in secrets on postcards. It gets updated every sunday . Its pretty interesting.Maby I will start sending some.

www.postsecret.blogspot.com

Thats all for today! It is really nice out so I am gonna take the boys outside

Survey............I found

2006-06-19T05:46:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I like doing little random surveys in my blog...so bear with me!

Name: Jolene Nicole
Age: 21
Gender: F
Height: 5'6
Birthday: July 12th
Hair Color: Dirty Blonde
Describe yourself in one word: Goofy
Describe your personality in one word:
.:Friends:.
Best Friend(s): Jenn G
How long have you been friends: since the 4th grade
Do you consider yourself a good friend: Of course!!!!
How many friends do you think you have: Too many
Most popular: Jenn G
Most conceited:
Friendliest: Katie
Meanest: Amanda
Prettiest: Jenn G
Craziest: Sara
Oldest: Lindsay -giggling at Lindsay!!!;)
Youngest: ??? IDK
Most recent: Jaime (waving HI Jaime!!)
Smartest:
.:Favorites:.
Food:
Person: MY family of course
Number: 4
Show: Rescue Me
Letter: T
Song: Right now...would have to say"Shakira"- My hips dont lie
Band/Singer: I LOVE ALL MUSIC
Place in the world: My bed, LOL
Season: Fall
.:Your-:.
Dream Vacation: Bahamas
Dream House: By the Lake
Dream Room: My own scrapboooking room
Location: ????? Never been out of NY
.:Last Time You:.
Watched T.V.: Tues night
Went to the bathroom: about 3 hours ago
Ate: I ate a beef stick at work
Slept: Head on the table during last break at work
Listened to music: Right now
Used the phone: Last night to call my sister
IMed someone/Got an IM: yesterday...my brother
Went to school: uh...like 4 years ago
Played a game: yesterday with Trenton
Took a shower: last night
Hugged someone: last night...my kids of course and my sister
Went on a date: Whats that?????
Wrote a letter: A few days ago
Cried: The day before yesterday
.:Last Person You:.
Hugged: Trenton
Kissed: Carter
Laughed at: My children
Cried over: Jamie and Jason
IMed/Got an IM from: My brother
Hurt: Katie at work :( sorry Katie
Talked to: My children
Spoke to on the phone: My brother
Ate with: Mother In law and FIL and family
Spent time with: my children, hubby, sister, MIL and rest of family
Saw: My sister
Missed: Jason
Heard: Hubby
Played with: My children
.:Have You Ever:.
Been out of the country: NO
Been out of state/province: NO, LOL, I have been to PA but that dont count becuase it is like a mile away from me
Done drugs: a few times, LOOONNNNGGGG AGO
Done anything illegal: ONCE or twice, do the drugs count too?
Slapped someone: Yes
Cut yourself: No
Played an instrument: No
Hurt someone for no reason: No
Hurt someone: Yes
Killed an insect/bug: I just squished a spider at work!
Gotten stung by a bee: Yes
Lied to your parents: Yes
Stole Something: Yes
Kissed Someone: Did I mention I was married?
.:This Or That:.
Rock or Rap: Rock
Singing or Songwriting: Singing
Tennis Shoes or Sandals: Tennis shoes
Phone or Computer: Computer
Biking or Skating: Biking
Analog or Digital: Didgital
Coke or Pepsi: Dr Pepper
Sprite or Sierra Mist: Dr Pepper
MTV or VH1: VH1
R&B or Country: Neither
Cingular or T-Mobile: Verizon
Cats or Dogs: Dogs
AIM or Yahoo: yahoo
Bzoink or Quizilla: Quizilla
.:Word Association:.
Birthday: Party
Peanut: Butter
Good Charlotte: Suck
Ravioli: in a can
President Bush: I dont vote
T.V.: show
Rock: music
Rap: sucks
Chef: Emeril Lagasse
Boys: Drool
Girls: Rule
Calendar: Pages
Fan:
Evil:
.:Right Now:
Eating: nothing
Drinking: Dr Pepper
Watching: Go Diego, Go
What is on your mousepad: My kids
What are you doing: This survey
What song are you listening to: My humps
What's in your CD player: I think Ol Mcdonald
Wearing: Nightgown
Time: 9:25am
Month: June
Day of the Month: 19th
Year: 2006
Day of the week: Monday
What website are you on: myspace and blogger
.:Random Things:.
What color is your mousepad: Blue
What color is your keyboard: Black
What is the phrase you use the most online: LOL
Did you like this survey: Its alright
Are you sad that it's over: NO
What are you gonna do after this survey is over: GO TO BED
Do you like pop-up ads: Nope, they are blocked
How long have you been online: 1 hour

My sister Jamie.............

2006-06-18T07:29:00.000-07:00

Isnt she cute? LOL ...SHe just woke up, hehe...wait until she finds out I am posting this picture on the WORLD WIDE WEB! LOL
My brother had his Boces graduation last night....of course I couldnt make it becuase I had to sleep for work. But here are a few pictures...to share....My parents cant take nice pictures, BTW.
What else....hmmm.......This really cute guy came in last night at work....WHEW! VERY NICE LOOKING! He had one of those cute british accents too.I should have got his number...JK...LOL
Todays is Fathers DAY! Waving HI to all of the Fathers out there and wishing them a HAPPY FATHERS DAY! WE are going to the lake for a CAR SHOW...UGH! How I dread to look at cars....what is up with MEN and CARS......WHATEVER....I dont see the point of looking at a car UNLESS you are going to buy it...BUT it is Fathers Day and this is Dons Day......ANYWAYS....MIL and FIL are camping at the lake so we are going up to have a little party with them and some of the family. I am making 2 different Pasta salads to take along...one with tuna in it and another with Ranch dressing instead of mayo...ICK!
It was REALLY hot out yesterday...90 degrees and it is suppose to be even hotter today...but by the lake...we will get a breeze...YAY! It was HOT yesterday...UGH! I hate really HOT weather..it gives me a headache. Me and my sister took Trenton for a walk while DOn and Carter took thier naps . Then we came home and passed out ourselves, LOL
I got to get ready....will post pics tomarro!

Please Pray.

2006-06-16T15:41:00.000-07:00

Jamie is not doing well. Please pray for her to heal quickly and to be able to move on with her life. Thank s soooo much!

2006-06-14T06:18:00.000-07:00

~Noone should blame you for walking out early~

2006-06-13T21:15:00.000-07:00

When tomarro starts without you and you're not by our side
As the sun begins to rise-tears fill our eyes
We sit and think of all the things we didnt get to say
You had so much to live for and yet so much to do
We think about the yesterdays- the good ones and the bad
We remeber how much we loved you and all the fun we had
We never got to say good-bye and only god knows why
Emptiness and memories take the place of you now
We think of you and our hearts are filled with sorrow
When tomarro starts without you and it seems we're far apart
All we have to do is think of you.
Becuase,
Jason, you'll forever be in our hearts

"Something done in an instant can cause heartache for a lifetime"

You bid no one a last farewell, or never said Goodbye. You were gone before we knew it, and only GOD knows why. A million times we needed you, A million times we cried. If love alone could of saved you, you never would of died. In life we loved you dearly, In death we love you still. In our hearts you hold a special place, no one can ever fill. It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone, for a part of us went with you, The day GOD called you home. REST IN PEACE JASON!

You truley looked like an angel today Jason...Please look after us all. You are happy now with your grandmother where you wanted to be...LOVE YOU and see you soon.

Depression..............

2006-06-13T12:10:00.000-07:00

Depression is REAL. If you think you need to find a waay out...PLEASE find someone to talk too. Talk about your feelings and what your problems are. Talk your way out...PLEASE

REST IN PEACE JASON

2006-06-12T05:35:00.000-07:00

Rest in Peace Jason. We LOVE you and will always remember and think about you. We were truley grateful to have you in our lives.

SAY A PRAYER PLEASE!!!!!

2006-06-10T13:42:00.000-07:00

Please say a prayer for my little sister Jamie...she is going thru hard times right now! Thanks

Confessional Friday

2006-06-02T17:05:00.000-07:00

-I confess that I hoard food when I am stressed
-I confess that I LOVE to just crank up my fav music and let my mind wander with the lyrics
-I confess that even though I quit drinking pop I still like to "SNEAK" at least one a day
-I confess that most days I just feel like crying, some days I dont even know why
-I confess that most days I would rather have my hubby not around me becuase I see him TOO MUCH
- I confess that I caant wear my clothes from last summer AND still sticking my hand in the potatoe chip bag
-I confess that I feel like a bad mom everyday
-I confess that It hurts me deeply that my mom drinks but I hide it VERY well!

"Life is Like a Mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside you"

Jaime

2006-06-02T17:01:00.000-07:00

Hey girl! Start a blog will ya?

More Pictures

2006-06-01T02:49:00.000-07:00

MIL with Trenton in the AM

Hubby sittin on the curb waiting for the parade to start, Carter playing with the flag and Trenton waiting patiently On Memorial day! Oh...Here comes the parade!

Carter on the swing at the park, Don and Treton comming out of the castle, driving to the park, I Love this picture for some reason!
Trenton wearing my dads glasses!

First popsicles of the yr, LOL....they were too cold for Carter! We have TONS! My dad brought us down 7 BOXES! He used to do that all the time when we were little...but there was 4 kids and we would MOWW them right down!

Trenton being silly`wanted me to take a pic of his tounge!

My brother and his 2 prom dates!!! Arent they all looking good!

June already?

2006-06-01T01:19:00.000-07:00

My MIL at her 50th bday Party! I love this women to death!!!!!!

Carter mowing on pizza at the party! Trenton picked me some flowers before the party!

Carter snortin like a pig and Trenton sittin on a rock with another flower he picked me. ANd Carter on his Bike!

June 1st...WOW! Where does time go? I cant believe it is June already....next thing ya know and winter will be back! UGH!
So...mostly this post is all my pictures I promised to upload and never did! So here they are....the kids, memorial day, etc etc...just updates........Have to go back to work tonite! I hate it! We got this new manager who likes to get out the "WHIP" and work us to "DEATH". He ALWAYS has this lame lecture at night before we go to work

"Well, you guys did "OKAY" last night! You could always do "BETTER". We had a 4,000 piece truck and with only 8 of you here....we didnt get 3 departments done....I "WOULD HAVE" liked to get them all done! We need to work HARDER!"

Yah right MR....MABY if we got your paycheck every week and not some crummy $8 and hour paycheck....then MABY we might think about it!!!!!!! Man, some people! We have been working sooo hard lately that we dont even have time to stop and take a breath!!!!! We work to get the back room clear becuase the managers cant keep it nice! Corby will be here Sun and MON....CANT WAIT! It will be like HEAVEN......

As many of you know...my mother is suffering from alcholism. She has become VERY dependent on it..even more than before. I think she is sick. Her hair is falling out, she is VERY discolored. Im at lost of what to do at this point. I have become very frusterated and annoyed at the same time. Actually....to tell you the truth...Im not sure how I feel, or what I feel. On Memorial Day...we had a BBQ at my MIL's....my parents live right across the street...I watched her pull into the driveway...so did my boys. Not knowing she was drunk and driving....Trenton was yelling to her across the street....Gramma, Gramma. The car door opened and out she fell. Right to the ground! There I watched in amazment, forgetting that Trenton was watching also. Watched her as she crawled around to the back of the car ane pulled herself up on the bumper....Then she starts walking....and falls again to the ground, doing like a flip as she falls....then Trenton started Screaming and CRYING....obviuosly he thought she got hurt. SO I picked him up and took him in the house while he was literally screaming for gramma. I handed him to MIL and told her NOT to let him outside. I went back out and spyed thru the fencing on the deck. By this time.......she was puking and she was standing up with my dad on one side of her and a family friend on the other side of her....then my brother and my sister came out the door and all 4 of them helped her in the house. They could barley get her in the house...UGH! I HATED her sooo much at that moment! I just wanted to go over there and tell her HOW MUCH I HATED HER! SO...whatever...blew it off and enjoyed the rest of my day. When I went in to work that night...well ya know how it is...when you are working...your mind wanders and you think about EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. Well I started thinking about soooo much different stuff...about how my life was growing up, how Don was my escape, how his mother took care of me and not mine, about how selfish it seems to me for my mother to drink soooo much, and not care about nothing or nobody around her. I thought about how my 2 yr old screamed and cried as she hit the ground...and I didnt even feel a bit sorry for her! I thought about the times I remember when I was small before she drank. Not too many memories but a few. I cried ALL NIGHT LONG at work! On top of that, I had to run cash register...so I was a complete mess. That morning when I got home...I called my 16 yr old sister....talked about mom with her. SHe said that my mother puked all night long until she had nothing left in her to puke. She also said that she was VERY mean to her...in ways I dont want to share...and that my sister had taken care of her the rest of the night. She took a 2 hour nap and then got up and started drinking again...WHY DOES SHE DO THIS? I REALLY dont understand!!!

I found out that my 16 yr old sister takes care of her whenever she gets like this...and that would be every night!!!! I found out that she "helps" her puke, she makes her dinner, practically feeds it to her, stays up until 3-4 am EVERYNIGHT becuase she is afraid that my mother will Pass out and not wake up while my sister is sleeping. On top of all of this....my sister gets up at 6am every morning and goes to school. I found out that my 2 brothers....15 and 17 dont even talk to her, the 17 yr old sort of does but the 15 yr old dont even acknowledge her at ALL! This should not be there life!!! I feel so bad and guilty for skipping out on them all. I feel like I should be there taking care of the 3 of them. I should have never left...but now I have my own family to take care of and dont really know how to help them. ANYWAYS....she is sick, I know she is....something is wrong with her! Her hair shouldnt be falling out in GOBS and her skin shouldnt be the color it is. She dont eat anything and of she does...it gets puked up. SHe works fulltime, a cook at the college......She goes to work either hung over or she feels the need to "DRINK" before she goes to work. Im very scared for her, I really am but I am also sooo MAD at her. I guess mostly becuase she was never there for us and still isnt. I have talked to the rest of the family about having her "admitted" But nobody cares anymore. Everyone says ...how are you going to help someone who doesnt even want to help their self? At least I am trying right? As of that, my father dont want to admit her and neither do my grandparents.....she needs help and she needs it now...before it is too late! If nobody wants to work with me...to get her the help...what am I suppose to do? MIL suggested getting my siblings together and holding a meeting and telling her that if she dont get help then we will have nothing to do with her....BUT we will never get her sober and she wont care anyways. She always says she dont care about us and wishes she were dead. I have got ahold of our local A-AON group and thought about taking my little sister to the meetings...I really think she needs to talk to someone. I think that most of the things listed above will scar her. As for my brothers.....they would NEVER go....they just keep everything hus, hush. And thats the problem is that everyone either ignores the sistuation...hoping it will go away or they make up excuses as to why she drinks. Well, sooner or later it is going to go away becuase she is going to be dead and I want to help her the best I can. But I cant do it on my own! Any advice from anyone out there would be great! And to my dearest of friends who read this..I know you will be there for support!!!!

2006-05-31T20:30:00.000-07:00

I can forgive, but I cannot forget, is only another way of saying, I will not forgive. Forgiveness ought to be like a cancelled note - torn in two, and burned up, so that it never can be shown against one. ~Henry Ward Beecher

Prayers please....

2006-05-31T17:26:00.000-07:00

Hi All! Please send thoughts and prayers to my dear friends Ashley S, her hubby Brian and her son Clayton. Their son....Clayton, has been sick over the last couple days......he has has a VERY high fever and had a SEVERE Seizure, which left him not breathing for quite a while. He has been hospitalized for the time being....they have not gotton the results back yet on what is wrong with him. They lost their first son to this type of thing and this is the farthest they have come with a child. PLEASE send lots of thoughts and prayers to a quick recovery and positive results! Thank you!!!!!

2006-05-30T22:49:00.000-07:00

"The Heart of a mother is a deep abyss at which you will always find forgivness"
-Honore' de Balzac (1799-1850)

I HATE BEER

2006-05-29T15:44:00.000-07:00

I mean, I really hate beer.
The taste of it, the smell of it, the idea of it. I've never acquired a taste for beer. I won't even kiss The Hubster if he's been drinking it. Gag.

Two days ago, while grocery shopping with the kids, which was insanity in and of itself, I thought I'd buy some ice cream for The Hubster. I found the Godiva bars that he loves, and glanced over at the Ben & Jerry's. I died just a bit inside, knowing that I wasn't going to get any.
But! There was a NEW flavor. I thought I might just buy a small container of it, just to have as a treat now and again. (I am in nothing if not denial. almost three pounds? I SCOFF at you, scale. I got into a size 12!) So, I picked it up. Black and Tan, it's called. I started to read the smaller print, where the description is, and Riley began to scream. A quick glance gave me the words "cream" and "Whirled with chocolate". Oookay, then, into the cart with you!

Today I thought about the ice cream. It's been a long time since I had ice cream, and I glanced longingly at the freezer. I allowed myself one small taste. Mouth watering with anticipation, I pried off the top and dug in the spoon. Smiling just a bit, I popped the cold creamy bite into my mouth.

Oh, gross! What the hell was this??? I leaned over the sink and spit it out, and rinsed twice. Yuck. The nasty taste was still there. I grabbed the container; cream and chocolate shouldn't taste like this! And then, I saw the description:

We've no idea how many Ben & Jerry's fans might be beer enthusiasts, but we suspect that once you've tasted the way we've blended real cream stout ice cream with a whirl of chocolate ice cream, you might soon be raising more than a few pints of Black & Tan - and more than a few brew-aha!'s too.

Oh, ick. Beer flavored ice cream. Somebody up there DEFINITELY doesn't want me eating ice cream.

Happy Memorial Day!

2006-05-29T15:20:00.000-07:00

Waving Hi to Jaime!!!!! :) How was the weather? Did you guys do anything? How is Jack? Do you miss talking to me? ROFL!!!!!!
Man it was HOT here today! It was above 90 degrees today! NINETY....9......0...UGH! Luckily....Hubby put in the air conditioner last night! Yay for me! We took the boys to a small local parade...they loved it! Loved the Marching band and they loved the firetrucks (boys.....LOL). Then we ran into my friend Hannah...who recently had her second Baby....he is sooo Darling! Talked and visited her for a good hour or so....went to the memorial Park for the ceremony and raising of the flag there. Stayed and had Ice cream with the boys. Went home, picked up the house and had myself a few zzz's.....off to MIL's for a BBQ. YUMMO!
Came home and of course it is time for me to go to bed! Last night tonite and I have my 2 nights off, YAY. You dont know how MUCH I look forward to theese days every week!!!!!!
My friend Jenny....about a month ago her apartment burnt down......Well she is finally able to move back in....YAY Jenny!
Yesterday....my 2 little boys were at my dads and he was off for the day and kept them, so that I could do some work done. I had almost 45 minutes to myself, and so I sat out at the playground, in order to get some sun on my face and arms. It was *nirvana* - I had a good book, and my fully charged iPod, and no one was around. It was so quiet, it was eerie. It was so nice that when I got home with the kids, I decided to try to get a bit more sun.
I KNOW, so bad for my skin. But, .......................... sooo flattering. At least I'm hoping.

Tired......

2006-05-26T10:10:00.000-07:00

Work was busy last night! LOTS of frieght!!! Man was I tired when I got home from work....I made the kids some panacakes for breakfast, topped them with fresh berries, syrup and some whip cream....fed them....did up the dishes really quick and went to bed. Hubby let me sleep 3 hours..but even after that I was just sooo tired I didnt want to get out of bed!
SO what is everyone doing for Memorial Day anything? We are taking the kids to a small local parade here in my town, then to the Memorial Park for FREE Ice Cream and then over to MIL's for a picnic/BBQ. It is suppose to be 87 degrees outside!!! We will see about that though seeing how it is rainy and yucky today!
So I am hoping to get LOTS of pics and get some scrappin done!!
I am working on a few albums right now....Making Hubby an album for Fathers Day...still stumped as to what I want to do with that one....the kids are still sooo young I dont really have many options. I am also working on a 6x6 album for Dons gramma that was "SUppose" to be finished by Mothers Day, but I just didnt have the time! Last but not least...I am also making an album about my brother to lay out at Grad Party. I was thinking something along the lines of just his childhood, school all up until his Grad night.Then I wil end it with Graduation. ANy Ideas would be GREAT!
What else....hmmm......Nope nothin else going on I guess. The picture I enclosed I took of Carter...it is me looking down at him! Love the perspective!!!!!

Vacation

2006-05-25T00:18:00.000-07:00

Man I cannot wait!!!!! Love Keuka Lake!!! We will be spending another 2 whole weeks up there AGAIN this summer!!! Trenton loves it sooo much up there! Well we all do! We have sooo much fun there! Busy all the time between being at the lake its self or hiking on the trails, fishing, boating or just going to different places around the lake.
We also like to go Wine Tasting....my fav personally. My most favorite place is

http://www.bullyhill.com/
Love their wine! So good and all natural too no chemicals added!
The pictures I shared up top are last yrs pictures at Kueka Lake...I didnt really get too many...we were too busy seeing how Carter was just a baby. Maby this yr I can get LOTS of pictures!
PS...Thats a frog in Trentons hand!

Making a list and checkin it twice

2006-05-24T07:57:00.000-07:00

Well I got ALOT to try and get done today...so I thought I would share it with YA'll.

*Clean Batheroom from top to bottom -UGH! I hate this one!
*Get laundry all done and taken care of
*work on Fathers Dat projects
*breakfast dishes
* lunch dishes
*Hubby is taking us out to an Italian Resturaunt (YAY NO Supper dishes)
* Get stuff around for my yard sale
*find a place to stuff all theese TOYS!
*vacuum the WHOLE house
*sweep and mop kitchen floor
* print brothers prom pics
*spend some time organizing brothers grad party
* SCRAP!!!!

43 Things

2006-05-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

Anyone ever hear of this?

1. declutter my house
2. loose weight/ get in shape
3. get organized
4. appreciate what I have
5. own a house on the lake
6. Get out of NY State
7. Make new friends
8. work becuase I like to, not becuase I have to
9. become a better photographer
10. learn to play the guitar
11. plant my very own garden
12. Buy my VERY OWN house
13. Spend more time with my parents
14. Scrap more often
15. pray more
16. STOP drinking Dr Pepper-pop in general
17. Go Scuba diving
18. Go to the Ocean
19. Pay off ALL my bills and get them all up to date!
20. organize recipes and complie "cookbook"
21. Cook more often; try new recipes
22. Go to college and get a degree
23. Start my own Daycare
24. Actually DO all those TO-DO Lists that I make
25. Get the WHOLE COLLECTION of Law and Orders on DVD
26. SPend more time with my boys and my kids
27. Finish what I start
28. Take a photo a day
29. Be less Shy
30. Exersize at least 3 x a week
31. Get on a Deisgn Team
32. Be Published
33. plan meals in advance
34. join a book club
35. Do something new every month
36. Make more cards
37. Take my kids on vacation at least once a yr
38. Have more "Me" time
39. Star our family reunion back up
40. Keep up with my blog
41. WIn the LOTTO
42. Send my kids to college
43. Be the best MOM/Wife I can BE!

Todays a busy day!!!!

2006-05-13T06:57:00.000-07:00

Very busy!
12:30 pm- Duck races
2pm- Surprise bday party for MIL
5pm- HAVE to finish Mothers day projects...this will take me ALL NIGHT LONG!
THis includes 5 cards, picture frame, 6x6 scrapbook, 12x12 scrapbook and a nice photo album! WHEW! I will be up all night! between all of that I have to clean my house, and try to finish making the menu for my brothers grad party!
For those of you that dont know my brother or have never seen him...I enclosed a picture. He has come sooo far and I am sooo proud of him! He is pretty darn good looking too...of course he gets that from me! haha! Anyways he has Prom tonite so...oh yah I have to be there to take the pics...DANG! Forgot about that! ANyways...he has Prom tonite and he is taking his date out to eat at a EXPENSIVE local resturant. How cute! He also got her a dozen roses....so cute! I cant wait to see him in his Tux!

So- I entered Trenton into the 4th of July...Jr King and queen contest.....if he wins he will get to ride in a convertalbe through the big 4th of July parade....he will be wearing a crown with a cape.....SO PLEASE VOTE FOR TRENTON!!! I put cans up all over town and I am selling tickets if anyone is interested!

Well I better get off of here! Got Lots to do! Will upload pics later tomarro...hopefully!

Meet Fred!!!!!

2006-05-11T06:22:00.000-07:00

Had to add some pics of Carter too!

Whats on my mind

2006-05-09T20:06:00.000-07:00

My Monthly challenge this month of May is to make a page of my mother. It is too make a page based on what I have learned from her. It is very hard for me to scrap this page. As many of you know my mother is a very bad alcoholic. She has been since I was a baby. Although I dont remember much until I was 4 or 5. Thats when the memories begin. It is very hard for me...I love her, I truly do but it seems like she dont care. She dont care about nothing anymore...not me, not my children, not my brothers or my sister, not my father. It hurts too. It hurts all of us! I am not really sure what I have learned from her...maby not to drink....what I learned about her is another story. I learned how selfish she can be, how miserable she can be with or with out alcohol, how careless she can be, how depressed she seems to be. Everyone tells me its a disease and there is nothing anyone can do...I donot believe this however! I donot think it is a disease, I think it is a choice. A choice that she made for herself! Why she made this choice of giving up her family or her life for alcohol is beyond me. Right before I started working at walmart..she ALMOST drank herself to death. She drank a bottle and a half of Jack Daniels and went unconcious. She was rushed to the hospital where her heart quit beating. They worked on her all the way to the hospital but nothing. As they were pulling into the emergency room her heart started beatinf again, slowly but surley. She was then admitted into the hospital for 4 days for recovery. She came home and layed in her bed for days upon days...she promised us she would never drink again! About a week later she started drinking....no matter how much we all cried to her to quite she didnt, she didnt care. So tell me what do I journal about? Forgivness I suppose...maby....I know I could never forget...still unsure about forgivness. It seems like I always want to forgive but deep down inside of me...I remember all the things I have been thru and all the things I had to deal with. ALl my brothers and sister deal with or have dealt with, Its just hard!

Peace Out!

2006-05-09T13:58:00.000-07:00

I really shouldn't be left to my own devices too long.Yesterday, I had several hours where I was by myself, just me, my iTunes (set to shuffle) and the veritable smorgasbord (orgasbord, orgasbord) of thoughts in my head. And somewhere in the middle of the day, with iTunes serving me a playlist consisting entirely of songs that reminded me of people in my life, I started to feel really... alone - and it was more than just the empty office. I was having one of my patended emotional crises where I get all nostalgic and bemoan the fact that no one gets me.It's these moods that make me want to call people I know and beg them to pay attention to me.I never do that, though, because, come on, how freaking annoying would that be?So, I mope and sigh deeply and feel very sorry for my misunderstood-artist-self and send out needy vibes for someone to love me - pathetic, I know.Even worse is that, when it comes down to it, I don't even really want someone to fully get me, because that would be scary and weird, I just want someone to be the same, all the time, consistent in the face of my inconsistencies, it's that kind of stability that helps me get the hell over myself and act like a human being again and not a grab bag of emotions.And, in the whole wide world, there were less than a handful of people with whom I knew I could act like a normal person - but did I call any of those people? Nooooooo, of course not. My friends are supposed to be psychic and have a tingling "Cate-Sense" that lets them know when I need attention. Again, pathetic, I know, but, for some reason, I wasn't born equipped with a normal friendship gene so I'm unable to function properly in relationships.But last night, just when I was ready to give up on the human race and lose myself in another riveting episode of those wacky teens in "The O.C.", one of my pals, whom I was really missing, IM'd me. And while we didn't talk about anything even remotely close to my emotional crisis, hell, we didn't even really talk about anything, but it made me feel a little better, a little closer to normal. And it was kind of nice to be pleasantly surprised by someone. But don't tell him, or he'll get all smug about it
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Change of subject before anyone wants to give me a hug or something!
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Rescue Me- SO happy that show is comming back to my Wed nights! I have been really missing that show! The last episode I saw...his brother SHOT the drunk Driver and was off to Jail. SO now I cant wait to see what happens

Well I am off! Taking the kids outside, checkin my email and doing some cleaning! We are having some friends over this evening! YAY!

Well.....

2006-04-26T14:59:00.000-07:00

Today I FINALLY cleaned out my closet! YIKES! ALl the clothes a girl can have! Not a PRETTY site! I basically just took everything out and threw it on our bed and went thru it! Ended up throwing soooo many clothes out I dont even know if I have anything left to wear! Does this mean I have to go shopping? I think it does!!!!!!
ANyways I ended up with 3 big 30 gallon bags of clothes and a 13 gallon bag of shoes to take to the salvation army! Wont they be excited!

What else......we took the kids for a walk today! It was kinda chilly.....65 out but the wind was cold. Trenton ended up falling asleep. We came back home and grilled some Italian Sausages. YUMMO!

I am going to an ALL NIGHT CROP Friday night! YAY!!!!! Cant wait! I have sooooooo many pages I want to get done! JAIME I wish you lived closer so we could go together, LOL! Maby someday I will come to NY for vacation! ANd we can SCRAP all week long! LMAO!

I dont really have much to say as you can see....THINK...HMMMMM!

Busy Weekend!

2006-04-22T09:54:00.000-07:00

Im pretty busy this weekend! Joined 3 online Crops! YAY......getting ready to start theese challenges! Have to work all weekend!!!!!Rainy, Crappy, windy day out! Very Dreary! PERFECT day to SCRAP! Next FRI, I will be going to an ALL NIGHT CROP! CANT WAIT!!!!

I LOVE this picture of Trenton and Hubby! It is soooo cute! For some reason I LOVE taking pics of Him with Trenton up on his shoulders! It shows their resemblance soooooo MUCH! Although this one is sort of shadowy! And the other pic of course is Carter., Blowing Mommy kisses! HEHE! Have a good weekend everyone!

Another layout!

2006-04-17T09:46:00.000-07:00

Yep been working on theese Easter layouts! I love the landscape view! Soo cool! Came out reallly BLAH looking for some reason. It is BRIGHT in real life!

I am suppose to be cleaning but no I am on this DANG computer again! Im going to have to get rid of it!

I had the worst day and night and work last night! First things first.....I woke up Cranky! Yep....me....CRANKY! Got over it! Kids kept CRYING AND CRYING and WHINING and SCREAMING and following me all over! I tripped over Trenton about 10 times! UGH! Put me in another bad mood! So we got to Dons moms for Easter....Gramma complaining OVER and OVER about the way my 2 yr old ACTS! MAD!!!!!!!!!! Ok.....so we ALL cant have perfect KIDS! Came home...played on the computer....took an hour nap...went to work! Work with no sleep and no caffiene=SUCKS!
I was snotty all night to EVERYONE! Had problems with my printer....almost smashed it! Threw a fit like a 2 yr old! Boss asked me to do something.....I asked him WHY he was waiting til the last minute to do stuff! Told him I was leaving at 7am NO MATTER WHEATHER I WAS DONE OR NOT! Went out did it, complained....he overheard me saying he was such a RETARD! Got called in the office and talked too! YIKES! He let it slide becuase he knew I was having a rough night! Tell ya the truth I almost just felt like breaking down and crying when he was talking to me...not really sure over what! Maby becuase he kept mentioning how bad my night was. Not sure! Came home....Took an hour nap and FEEL 100% BETTER!!

So Sat night we were coloring Easter Eggs and my didgital camera was not working right. I couldnt keep it on. Trenton dropped it about a month ago and the door wouldnt stay latched...I got soooo mad becuase I couldnt take pictures of my kids coloring Easter eggs that I SMASHED IT! Yep......TOTALLY BROKE NOW! Smashed it right on the open lens....broke the lens right out of the camera! BIG "EFFIN" deal I will just buy another! I got all the $$$ in the WORLD!

Easter Sun....we woke up aboout 8:30...KIDS still wanted to sleep in! HEHE.....Dragged them downstairs to get their Easter baskets. Carter tipped his over and immediatley went straight for the candy! GO FIGURE! Trenton kinda picked thru his until he found something he liked! Had fun!

We got our showers...skipped Church...and went to Mother in Laws when she got home from church! They hid 24 easter eggs for Trenton to find! HHe had fun doing that but then got a little frusterated! Played outside ALL DAY! Threw rocks in the creek, rode his car, played basketball...etc....etc...
Easter dinner made by Gramma and MIL! AWESOME! Ham, mashed Potatoes, Candied Yams, corn, corn casserole, coleslaw, dinner rolls, and a few other things I obviuosly didnt care much about! Said our prayers and PIGGED OUT!

So today I was suppose to clean...Take care of all the JUNK and clothes we got for Easter but Nope here I still AM! LOL!

And JAIME....yes u are that CERTAIN SOMEONE! ;) Send me your adress not thru here but my email, I have something for you!

Peace out!

IM SAD!

2006-04-15T12:17:00.000-07:00

I'll NEVER make a DESIGN TEAM! My stuff must not be good enough! Here are my 2 newest! I thought I would share. I am now working on ALL my Spring pics..new and old and let me tell ya...I GOT TONS!

Pictures!

2006-04-13T13:28:00.000-07:00

Trenton and his cousin! He loves her! Carters Cake from his Birthday Party!

Here is Carter after he ate a little chocolate easter bunny! LOL! He looks Drunk or high or something! LOL! He didnt even eat that much!

Trenton dressing up! I was laughing sooo hard at this one. He is in his diaper with his brothers winter hat on and his backpack! Too funny!
Enough for now! I am off to bed! Will share more tomarro!

Week in Review!

2006-04-11T16:11:00.000-07:00

So- It has almost been a whole week since I have posted last and I am CERTAIN that a CERTAIN Someone is very curious to know what I been up to!

READING- Scrapping magazine-CK, BHG, Scrapbook Answers, etc...Redbook magazine-which squigged me out with one of their articles- Raise your hand if you know what I mean, Several Daily Newspapers, Child magazine, email and the back of various cereal boxes.

Watching- Episodes of Law and Order, Watched Several Episodes of Blues Clues; I am currantly crushing on Joe. Morning and Nightly news...Boy I feel boring!

Clothes: Bought 4 news bras, 2 new shirts, 2 new Jeans and 2 new pair of Sketchers!

Housekeeping: 7 loads of laundry(not including bedding!)....Mopped Kitchen floor 3 times...Not sure how many times I swept, Washed 10 LOADS of dishes! Man do dished PILE up!

MISC- When I went to the coffe shop today I sat for a while to ponder some junk that is going on in my life right now! I also reminded myslef I have 5 HUGE garbage bag full of Clothes to go to Good WILL, 3 garbage bags to sell on EBAY and some library books to return!

Carters First Birthday Party was Sat! He was soooo shy and sooo bashful! All the pictures I got of him, he has his hand in the middle of his face...Hiding it! He got TONS of stuff! And Mama even got the double stroller she wanted! Will post pics tomarro...I know I always say this! If I have time I will!

And the question for today is: Do you think kids grow up good becuase of you or in Spite of you? Can you take all the credit if your child is perfect? Or take all the Blame if he is a total screwup! Can and should grown people blame their parents for their struggles and shortcommings in life?

MIA AGAIN!

2006-04-06T12:35:00.000-07:00

OKAY, OKAY! SO I have been MIA AGAIN! Been sooo busy from cleaning to sleeping, to working to scrappin to just hangin out with the boys...WHEW!
So whats new? I am applying to a few DT Calls...wish me LUCK I need it! I am HOPING to get one someday! LOL! I been scrapping for like 3 days straight...and I hope it is WELL WORTH IT!

I am on a diet! Its offical! I hope I stick with it! Cross fingers and wish me LUCK! I walked on treadmill for 18 min today and burned 70 calories! I dont know if that is good or not but it is better then nothing I guess! I just need to do that everyday and watch what I eat and I should, SHOULD be fine! It is soo easy to gain but so hard to lose!

What else...Work. I hate 3rd shift I really do! LOL! I cant wait to get off it! YAH RIGHT Like that will happen....I should of never went to 3rd shift...now I am STUCK!

I am going to an ALL NIGHT CROP April 28th! I hope to get alot done! CAnt wait! SO EXCITED! LOL!

Carter turned one yesterday! We had a little party here for him! Not much of anything though. We are having the BIG PARTY SAT. I cant believe he is one already BTW...I made his card for him! HEHE!

I REALLY need to give up the DR PEPPER! Maby start drinking water...anyone have any good suggestions? This is going to be HARD!

Well got to go wake up hubby!

I LOVE NICE WEATHER!

2006-03-31T15:12:00.000-08:00

We been spending the last 2 days cleaning and outside! I spend my mornings cleaning and after lunch, out the door me and my kids go!!!!!! It has been sooo nice here in NY! Yesterday it got up to 72 degrees and today it got up to 74! Trenton loved it! We had soooo much fun!!!! He played with the neighbor boy both days. He is 3, will be 4 in May....Trenton is such a lovie! He kept hugging him and kissing him, LOL! The little boy does it back...it is sooooo FRICKEN cute!
He got sooo filthy...black from head to toe! But he had sooo much fun and thats what counts!
I took LOTS of cute pics...if I get time I will share tomarro!
We are going to a festival we have here tomarro! It is called the MAPLE FESTIVAL!!!! Bunch of vendors and stuff! ECT! It is nice but not nearly as nice as when I was little! Hopefully we will have fun!
I am also going to an ALL NIGHT CROP on April 28th! YAY! It is CM based though not hosted by a LSS! But I will have FUN and glad I am taking off a whole night of work to do nothing but SCRAP! CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!
Well off to bed for work!
PEACE OUT!

He Who Hath Mastered the Throne!

2006-03-30T05:46:00.000-08:00

I vaguely recall a time in my life when pooping and peeing by ones self was just something that we all did. It was only part of being a human - nothing special, really. Nothing to make a big deal about... No different than breathing or sneezing or coughing while alone in a room...
It's just a function of the body. Sometimes you just feel the need, and... There. Done.

Nowadays, using the toilet is cause for celebration. When the wee lass whom resides in our home walks into the bathroom on his own accord, shuts the door, does his duty, and finishes up without assistance from an adult, it's as if the clouds opened up and Jesus himself descended from heaven right before our very eyes. It's a blessed miracle.
"Mommy! I POOPED in DA PODDY!" a small voice yells from the bathroom, as I sweep the kitchen floor after dinner...
Time stands still. I drop the broom and the dustpan. I gasp. "You POOPED!!? All by yourself!!?"
I dance a happy jig into the stinky bathroom while I sing congratulations. "Trenton went-a-poopie, Trenton went-a-poopie! Yippee! Let's bake a cake! Hooray! What a big boy you are!!"
Oh. It doesn't stop there. Usually after I hop and sing and congratulate, I have to tell him how extraordinarily wonderful he is. We gather round the toilet bowl, look inside together, and bask in the afterglow.
"Trenton. Have I ever told you that you are the best gosh darn kid on the planet? Just look in that toilet. Look at what a good job you did. You're spectacular. You're fantastic. You're supercalafragalisticexpealadocious. Honestly - you might be a genius. Have you considered Harvard? Yale? Shall we flush now?"
As I place my adult sized hand on the handle, he places his smaller hand atop mine, and together, as one, we flush.
And then, like almost every time he does a #2, we watch as the water slowly recedes, but then instead of emptying completely, begins to rise again due to the enormous turd that has just clogged the siphon. When he GOES, well, he goes.
How a person his size can produce that much poop in one sitting is beyond me. I won't lie. I've never seen anything like it. He looks like me and acts like me, but, um, I think this trait he gets from his father.

YAY!

2006-03-27T15:08:00.000-08:00

I am sooo happy! My last night to work and then my 2 days off! I have been soo tired Latley!

ABC's of me!

2006-03-26T11:33:00.000-08:00

A is for age: 21 and loving it!
B is for booze: Jack Daniels!!!!!
C is for career: Walmart overnite Pharmacy Stocker. I prefer MOM
D is for your Dad's name: Frank Jeffery, In that order
E is for essential items you bring to a party: Me?
F is for favorite song at the moment: I am digging back into the 70's right now.
G is for favorite game: Scattagories
J is for jam you like: Blackberry
K is for kids: 2. Two boys, 1 yr and 2 yr. Life is GOOD!
L is for love: My life. Everything is good, most of the time.
M is for mom's name: LeDorna
N is for name of your ex's: Do we really want to go that far back? Nah.
O is for over night hospital stays: Just to give birth. Two nights
P is for phobias: Spiders, heights, Definatley Spiders!
Q is for quotes you like: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: My hubby and I have been together for 8 yrs.
S is for sexual preference: My husband? LOL
T is for trouble the naugtiest thing you did as a kid: Stole my dads old rings and sold them at school
U is for underwear: Bikinis, DAILY!
V is for vegetables you love: broccoli
W is for worries: You want the whole list? I have 2 kids remember?
X is for xrays you 've had: none
Y is for yummy food you make: Brownies. YUM!
Z is for zodiac sign: Cancer

Just PUT ON YOUR UNDERWARE

2006-03-25T11:00:00.000-08:00

Wednesday morning at 3:30 a.m., I awoke to the sound of Trenton's voice yelling at me through the baby monitor next to my bed. "MoooOOOOOOOM! Sit in the rocking chair, mom! Moooom!"
(There is a rocking chair outside his bedroom door. We get him to go to sleep on his own each night by promising we'll "sit in the rocking chair" while he dozes off... Of course, we don't really sit there. We walk out of his bedroom door, stand next to the chair and move it back and forth for about 10 seconds so it makes that old-squeaky-rocking-chair-sound, then we go downstairs. What the kid doesn't know won't kill him.)
So, upon The KING"S request, I got up in the middle of the night, and walked down the hall to his room. Trenton was sitting up in bed, looked at me, and said:
"Mom, sit in the rock-
Mom. Put on your PANTS."
I had gone to bed that night in my sweatshirt. I'm usually a full-jammies kinda gal, and that's usually how he sees me. Apparently, Trenton wasn't impressed with my pant-less look.
I went back to bed and tossed and turned. After an hour or so, my stomach started growling.
"I will NOT be the woman who gets up in the middle of the night to eat." I told myself. "But I'm HUNGRY. And I can't sleep. Hmm. Sex? That might help me forget about food..."
Now. Without being too obvious, how do you wake a sleeping husband up from a deep sleep to, um, ah-hem?
I tried spooning. He continued to snore. I tried coughing, sniffing loudly, and then wiggling around while spooning. Still, nothing.
A few moments later I was downstairs, in the dark, at 4:30 a.m. eating frosted mini-wheats. That's some good cereal, there.
Don's alarm went off around five or so. I think I finally fell asleep around 5:30. . My alarm went off at 6:15. Trenton woke promptly afterward. I begged him 25 times while I showered and got myself ready for appt to put on his underwear by himself.
PUT ON YOUR UNDERWEAR, CHILD. THAT'S ALL I ASK. He will dress himself in secret, or when we don't have to go anywhere. He'll even pick out his own clothes, put them all on, brush his teeth, apply chap stick, comb his hair, and offer to do the dishes when we're in no hurry... But when asked to dress himself when I have to go to APPT in fifteen minutes? He reverts to a six month old, falls on the floor and flops around naked, only speaks in jibber-jabberish, and refuses to let me come within 10 feet of him while I'm holding a comb or toothbrush.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Somehow, I made it to APPT on time. Yes, I nearly called Don in sleep-deprived frustration to yell, "GOD DAMMIT, I NEED YOU HERE TO HELP ME THE MORNINGS IF I AM GOING TO BE TAKING THE KIDS MYSELF AND BY THE WAY, I'M STILL HORNEY!!!!",
but I didn't.
And you know what? The day only got better from there. It was one of those moments where I'm glad I work. I whine a lot in my writing about how I don't know if I should work, or how I would love to stay home, but I have a feeling a day by myself at home with Trenton might have gotten really ugly. There would have been crying. And spanking. From both of us. I love my child SO MUCH it hurts, but at that moment, I also realized why some women choose to work away from home. Work can be rewarding. Some days, it can make things better. And, on a day like Wednesday, it can make a TIRED HORNY MOMMY forget about sex.

Just Put on your underware!

2006-03-25T10:59:00.000-08:00

2006-03-25T10:19:00.000-08:00

SO we went and got our haircuts! Mine looks sooooo much healthier niw! It started looking Raggy and gross looking. YIKES! Trenton- LOL! I took him inti the hair dressers, he was all happy becuase he thought we were going somewhere special...I kept telling him we were going to get our haircuts but he didnt believe me! Well when we got in there, she was waiting and Trenton looked at her and let out a LOUD HI! She says to him- U ready to get ur hair cut? ANd IMMEDIATLEY his eyebrows SCOWLED and he shook his head NO! We put him up in the chair and he sat there quiet as can be....with this dirty, scoweled look on his face...TOO FUNNY! And then Mommy says give him that cute little bowl cut that u see on all the little guys...well it didnt come out sooo good! His hair is too thin and iut looks crappy...BUT CUTE I guess! I will post some pics tomarro!
The pics I posted...Is Trenton, It seems he is ALWAYS closing his eyes when I take a pic! WHY KID???? Keep Those DANG eyes OPEN!

Bored

2006-03-24T10:09:00.000-08:00

I am sooo bored and my back is killing me today! My first day back at work and it sucks! I am sooo sick of work latley! About 3 weeks ago, I had notified my manager that this morning we had to leave early....we had to leave at last break in order to pick our children up at 6:15 due to a minor surgery Hubbys setp-dad was having. He told me it was no problem just remind him closer to the time...so I reminded him last week and again this morning. Well.....when I told him this morning he told me that only one of us were allowed to leave...EXCUSE ME?
Yeah....You both dont need to leave and I am only granting one of you to leave....WHAT?????? I was pissed!!!! They let everyone go home early all the time and ONCE in I dont know how long....we ask to go and he tells us NO! I was flaming! GRRRR!!!! I asked him why and hw said becuase that was the rules...WHatever! There is another set of married people that they let go home all the time just becuase they dont feel like working and we have an excuse and he wont let us go...well I brought that up and he just told me NO! JERK!
So then I paged Hubby and told him and Hubby paged him to his dept....then next thing I know my manager is in my Dept telling me that I am allowed to go and Hubby has to use personel time. I was soooo pissed! I got into this HUGE argument with him! Then he walked away...by the end it was a 2 hour process. Well....we had to go fill out personl time sheets and do all the crap we had to do and about 3am Manager approached Hubby and told him he wasnt going to make him use his Personal time.Well I dont understand WTF the point was!!!!! Why did he waste his time and upset us! SO stupid! I am sooo sick of theese managers! This is the kind of sick games they play with everyone! It gets tireding after a while! WHEW! Vent over!
Anyways.......I included some pics of Trenton...so cute! The first and second one...My dad...he bought Trenton some pink sunglasses, becuase Trenton is always stealing my fathers reading glasses...LOL! I lOVE theese 2 pics....The one Trenton wanted my dad to be in the pic...so dad pulled out his reading glasses. So cute! And the other Trenton put his glasses on upside down and I just "LOVE" his face expression....such a HAM......The picture after that is Trenton on the phone with my dad. He gets sooo into the phone...I see him do things that I do while he is talking....In this picture he is picking up a peice of paper and looking at it....I thought it was sooo cute becuase he acted like he was reding it and I love how he is sitting! I have the most PRECIOUS boys!

I have been having my dad over for lunch at least 3 times a week and I am runnning out of lunch ideas! I love my daddy and I spend as much time as I can with him! But seriously! Running out of ideas!@ Not good! SO if you have anything, anything at all! LET ME KNOW PLEASE!

Rachel Ray- Who like her? Who dont! I have been getting her magazine, which has kinda sucked! I see maby one recipe out of the whole magazine I ever even like. I ened up giving gramma all the mags I have gotton. Although I do like the website...and I find alot on the site I like...but the magazine is NOTHING like her tv show!

http://www.rachaelraymag.com/

Well not much more to say sooo Im outta here! Got some cleaning to do!

Does anyone know?

2006-03-22T02:11:00.000-08:00

Why all my info moved to the bottom of the page? It looks ridiculous and not sure how to fix it!

Hey There!

2006-03-21T15:36:00.000-08:00

One. Carter will be one April 5th. Part Plans are as follows:
-at my MIL's house
-Barn yard Babies
-Balloons-presents
-MIL makes the cake...which will come out totally AWESOME! As it has the past 2 yrs at Trentons Parties
-Presents
-Jelous Brother!
Im not sure what the party will be like! Trenton is VERY jelous of Carter and has such a bad Temper towards him...but we will see I guess. ANYWAYS....we are going birthday shopping next wednesday! YAY! We get our bonus chack and we are going SHOPPING! I really want to get Carter some cool toys! So I guess KB toys here we come! LOL!
This is the theme we are doing! SO cute! RIGHT?
http://www.orientaltrading.com/otcweb/application?namespace=browse&origin=categoryDisplay.jsp&event=link.itemDetails&sku=PT83&mode=Browsing&catDestinationJSP=/browse/categoryForward.jsp?categoryId=375600 Sorry it wouldnt let me copy and pate the pic! Darn thing!

Today is my day off! YAY! Havent done much! Slept most the morning away until about 2pm. I NEEDED IT! And more! Oh and by the way
CONGRADULATIONS EMILY!
on your engagement! How cool! SO sweet how he proposed! You are one LUCKY ladie!
I have been having the worse headaches ever! Im not sure what the cause is but it has been really bothering me lately.
Trenton has this bag of pop-ons...anyone know what they are? They are like MEGA BLOCKS but Fisher Price. They come in like a thick plastic zip up bag. Well today when Trenton was playing in his room and I was sleeping, Hubby went up to check on him....he had the bag over is head....Hubby Immediatley took it and threw it away! So now I am stuck without a bag for all of theese POP ONS! I am looking for a set of direstions to make a Drawstring bag...ANYONE know where I can get theese? The kind where u take 2 pieces of fabric, sew them together and then put the string in....ANYONE know? I think that should work for the pop-ons!
BORING...am I boring you? Sorry! My life id just plain boring!
I hit my manager up today! I asked him if I could move to Part time for the spring-Fall and then go back to Fulltime in the Winter....He said that he DOUBTS they will let me but it never hurts to ask so He will be asking and I will be waiting (with my fingers crossed! ).....PRAY FOR ME! LOL!
Also- Our Manager approached HUBBY and told him that he was getting a MERIT RAISE in April! How cool is that? For those of you who dont know what a MERIT RAISE is....I asked becuase I wasnt even sure, LOL! But he told me that it was a raise is based on your work performace and ateendane! It is 55 cents! YAY! ANd he told me that basically you have to be one of the BEST 3 employees that yr to get it! TOTALLY AWESOME! So u figure....in our walmart store, we have prolly at least 3 maby 4 hundred employees. And he is one of the top 3! WAY TO GO HUBBY!
He has been there 5 years, and has gotten 4 out of the 5 years he has been there! And our managers switch about every 6-9 months too, so it is not favortism. I am sooo proud of him!
Well nothing much more to talk about...my LIFE IS BORING! I know!

Peace out!